Good Enough

Have you ever just had one of those days where you feel like you aren't good at anything? You're not a good mom because you _____, your not a good wife because _____, you can't keep the house clean, you don't cook good for you meals lately, your garden is getting beyond you, the laundry is piling up, you forgot to call a friend, you knew you should have done something for someone, but you chickened out, and in general, you just feel bad. What do you do when you start to feel this way? When this dialog of your "failures" starts running through your head? For me, I had to take a step back and look at the things that I have done successfully. I do know how to cook nutritional dinners and when I find/make the time I cook them. I love my children, they have clothes to wear, food to eat, and for the most part seem happy. I do play with them and read them stories and they love me. I love my husband and I remember that he works hard for us all week, and he can't read my mind so if I need his help, I need to let him know. My garden is better than it was last year and it is a learning experience. It will be better next year than this year, so just try to do the best I can. I know that I'm not a failure, there are some things I can do well. I think one of the hardest things in life is to not get discouraged. How do you do it? How do you keep your thoughts positive and move on when you feel down?

Storytime

Today when we came home from town I put the groceries away and then went to see what the kids were up to. I hope you can hear okay as Taylor reads you a story.

Goals

So, I have this list of things I want to do on the side of my blog. I've gotten a few things done, but really, the list has not changed in a while. I was thinking I could mark done planting a garden since I do have somethings out, but I don't have everything out. I do have a garden planted, it's just not a complete garden. This is one of those questions of how honest do I want to be with myself? I haven't marked it done yet because even though I really want to, I also have a tomato jungle on my table reminding me that they need to get outside before I can say that I'm done with the planting. Our garden won't be as big this year as we wanted it to be, but it's bigger than it was last year. I guess it is something we will just have to work up to. So, here's to fresh veggies and a healthier lifestyle.

Monday's Miracles

1- Sunshine

2- Rain

3- Dirt

4- Seeds

5- The magic that happens when all the above come perfectly together to make something yummy to eat.

Monday Miracles

1- Blossoms on the trees.

2- Water.

3- Warm spring breezes

4- Swings

5- Tomato Plants

Random

We have had such a busy week. I had to go to Twin on Tuesday and since it is so far away I like to get my errands run while I am there. I guess that Michael had plans of his own. The girls were really good and did what I asked them to, but Michael wanted things done his way. Needless to say I didn't get everything done that I wanted to and we went home early. At home things have been a little better. We got to go to the park on Wednesday and play with some friends. That was nice. I did manage to get a few things planted in the garden between Rachel's naps. I put out some of my peppers, my broccoli and my cauliflower. I also got beans, spinach, beets, carrots and radishes planted. Our peas are coming up, too. I wanted to get a few more plants, though, that I didn't get started myself, so I called in reinforcements and asked my parents to go to Twin with me. They agreed. So today, off we went. It was lunch time when we got to Twin so we stopped to get something to eat. Well, just our luck, as soon as we sit down, Michael throws up. My dad took him to get cleaned off and we went and got him a new outfit. I needed to return some library books, so the next stop was to do that. Michael seemed like he was feeling a little better so I decided to take a chance and hurry through my errands. I did get my plants and a few groceries. Then, home we went. He seems to be fine now, so I wonder if something he ate just didn't agree with him or something.

On another note, Robert got my garden fenced in. One of our dogs loves to lay down in my raised boxes that I have. She also dug up the pansy I had just planted. I think I saved the pansy but I was not happy with the dog. I hope the fence keeps her out. Robert also got the ground ready on the other side of our door and the side of our house so we can plant grass there. I am so excited! I can't wait to have more lawn. I feel kinda bad for Robert, he has so many "honey-do's" and the weekends just aren't long enough. And his list isn't just things I want done, there are things he really wants to do that we just don't seem to have the time for. I help with what I can, but there is only so much I can do while the baby is sleeping.

Changing the subject again, did I ever mention that I have a new position in church? I am now the Primary Chorister. I love this position! I am so excited to be teaching the songs to the children. Last Sunday was my first full time doing the music and I think it went pretty well. I have so many ideas of things I want to do, I just hope they all work out. Actually, the biggest problem that I am having right now is that I wish I had more time. Still, I guess I better leave some time for a lesson.

Hives

So, I now know what hives feel like. I don't recommend anyone have them. Now, I can think of mainly 2 reasons to get hives, an allergy or stress. Besides the changing of the seasons, I can't think of an allergy, well maybe the chickens, but I don't think that is why I have hives. I think it's because of stress. You see, I was managing my stress just fine with chocolate for a while. I went through a lot of chocolate chips, then I realized that Rachel didn't like chocolate. They made her tummy upset and caused her to spit up more. Bye-bye chocolate. Then, I got hives. You see, I didn't handle it well having the chickens in my laundry room. I am still very sensitive to smells and those chickens stunk! And because they were in the laundry room, I didn't want to go in there, because I wasn't going in there, laundry wasn't getting done, my kids were running out of clothes and so was I. Since the laundry wasn't getting washed and put away it was cluttering up the floor. I am having a hard time with clutter, too. So, smells + clutter = hives. Now, the chickens are out in their coop and the smell is airing out. I am once again comfortable going into the laundry room so our clothes are getting cleaned again, that is very good. So, why do I still have hives? Maybe it is allergies.