I've been searching for Peace lately. It seems like especially at this time of year you may hear a Christmas Wish of Peace on Earth, but what about Peace in my heart? How do you find Peace amidst the hustle and bustle of life, and more importantly, how do you find Peace when Life happens? When someone gets sick, loses a job, or does something to hurt you what do you do? There are so many things going on it seems, that I have no control over, and yet I worry. I worry about those family and friends who have cancer. I worry about if we will get enough snowfall this winter to fulfill our water needs and also give Robert some work. I worry about my sister who moved away.
The logical part of my brain says to turn over all of my worries to God and go on having faith that things will work out. In fact, I tell myself that many times during the day, "it will all work out". I don't know when or how, but it always seems to work out somehow. It's hard, though. I have so much energy from worrying and I need a way to vent it. Writing helps some. What I really would like is a punching bag. I'd really love to just pound away and release all this frustration without fear of breaking something. Kickboxing videos have been helping and as a side benefit, I'm almost to my goal weight!
So, I guess I'll just keep plugging along doing the best I can. What else can I do? I'll just have to trust that yes, everything will work out, somehow.
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Peace, now that's an interesting thing. I remember when my kids were all little. I was sad, mad and tired all the time. I remember praying for peace all the time! I don't remember anything profound happening, but I kept plugging away like you said doing the "right things."
The peace has come for me, but it took a lot longer to get to then was on "my agenda." It wasn't until my kids were older, hormones were balanced, and I had regular consistent sleep. The point: Keep at it. It will come.
(I just remind myself. It is this lacking peace or I could be walking across the plains right now with no blankets and half my kids dead. I'll take the lacking peace trial right now, thank you very much).
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